The simple things
It’s funny the things that I have learned to enjoy so much more now than ever before. Tonight I stopped on the side of the road by my church to witness the beautiful sunset. Two nights ago I saw a sunset driving up 422…as we were driving up 422 we pulled over, I told Evan I wanted to take a picture…as we were waiting for a lull in the passing cars, Evan was saying that the sunset looked like a river with mountains behind it. I put myself in his mind and I saw the same thing… the beauty of the simple things that we take for granted every day was right in front of me and I was taking it all in.
I think in life it is natural to take things for granted…Every single thing in life can be taken for granted. The electric when we are without from a storm, clean water …when you are watching a special about so many children in the world who go without. Shoes… check out Soles for Souls to realize just how many go without such a simple thing as shoes. Food… do you know that according to CNN obesity is now a worse crisis than hunger?? We obviously have taken food for granted…Smaller things are taken for granted too… a smile, a hug, a sunset, a kiss, maybe just the touch of your child’s hand as they are falling asleep next to you.
Funny thing for me right now is I am trying to enjoy everything and, as one friend says “find the balance” . I am trying to find the balance of so many different things and for anyone who has ever been there they know it is not easy. I want life to stop or at least slow down so I can truly enjoy every single moment that comes my way.
Christmas is almost here and I have nothing done (except my house thanks to some amazing people) I am normally so on the ball with this stuff but for some reason I just don’t seem to care this year. No tree yet…hopefully this weekend…no card done…oh well I’ll get to it. To be honest I don’t want Christmas to come. After Christmas the New Year will be here and how could the New Year be any worse than this year? Well, it could be and I don’t want to go there. I want to focus on today and that is it.
This week I found myself in Staples buying a voice recorder. As I was searching for the best one I remember asking the guy about voice quality…I just love Eli’s precious voice and I want to be able to hold on to that forever if…..the if I do not want to finish but I am sure you get where I am going. Which one could record the most and can I transfer it to my computer..…really? Am I really preparing myself for the day that I might never hear Eli or Ella’s voice again? THIS IS NUTS!!!!! Yet, here is another thing I have oh so taken for granted…their cries, laughter, screams & joy that has come from their mouth. The calls of Mom, mommm,mmmoooommmmmm…over and over till I answer them. What a wonderful word that I will NEVER take for granted again. I am prepared! NO REGRETS!! That is how I live my life.
At times when I look at Eli & Ella I really can’t believe they have this dreaded disease. They are both these perfect little people in these perfect little bodies. Every morning that they wake up, it is a true gift when they come down as happy and as healthy as they went to bed. Phewww…it should be another good day. The disease is not winning…THEY ARE… and I believe they will continue to win!